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#PSA & fitting note to leave this lil #sepsis #trauma exercise on: if u have good #politics ****except**** when it comes to ur #romantic life U HAVE #BAD POLITICS #BRO #pussyriot #hypocrite #farright #love #evil #meme #stolen #truelove #enormousface #mcm #mcnever #ug

&before y’all #enormousface apologists start up or xe does, here’s the front of the package that literally gave me #sepsis. I was already struggling w severe health problems due to a genetic collagen disorder & as such asked them 2 mail me an old piece I could no longer remake bc it required a metal shop and tf if anyone is gonna let my tachycardic ass near their welding equipment or grinders!!! He didn’t wanna. For abt a month he ghosted giving no explanations & I admit my messages to him were increasingly & humiliating #autismspeaks / #ptsd frantic. He had abandoned me once in the #hospital before, within weeks of my severe #diagnosis & I was super #triggered. it just seemed #spiteful a way I rly couldn’t fathom that he’d give so few fucks but still hold my #creative work #ransom. But he wasn’t even gettting started w the spiteful yet!!!!! when he finally did send my object w no explanation / letter he didn’t send the tiny thing (approx 2inches) in an envelope or small box like a #healthy person. He mailed two big ass boxes one filled w sweet Only I Really Understand You gifts (despite the fact ik he has an I assume long #suffering #monogamous gf he was quick 2 #polybro disparage during our last #irl #mindfuck session & I explicitly told him I would not be part of further #emotional infidelity w him etc) &the other contained my requested item SWIMMING in a huge quantity of melted chocolate laced w red dye, which, as he had once literally saved my life due to the severity of an #allergy, he knew to be #life #threatening. The package that contained the toxin was literally differentiated from the other nice one w “the cruel” which, as I fight for my life, I must begrudgingly admit was quite accurate. #abuse #attemptedmurder #ableism #criminal #receipts etc sorry for poor quality of this pic the only app i have to color on images atm is trying to get me upgrade to premium & I am DONE negotiating w #terrorists. ((Also didn’t want to show his return address but I still have this and will be sharing it w #police when I am well enough to get back in my studio n retrieve it lol police one last way 4 that #hypocrite to make me compromise my #ethics I guessss))

lookie here at this #wip #doll & #puppet I might never get 2 finish bc the OG #enormousface poisoned me. idk. my #hope 4 the future is the graph of #cosine which is to say #timesup / #time 2 stop #tbt crying abt how my left hand used to be able 2 grip things & #move & #work on #healing enough 2 one day get back in the #studio ...but it’s super devastating my life / livelihood will be permanently effected by this & the bastard who chose to do this to me out of sheer diagnosed #narcissist #spite will #suffer no consequences whatsoever not even the social shaming customary w a #good old fashioned #metoo bc it still #hurts 4 me to breathe & I have / communicate like I have the autism I do while he’s got thousands of followers / enablers & is v “cool” lololololololol #BUSHWICK eff uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu before ur homeboy intentionally gave me sepsis I was a VERY stable genius w a Mensa member IQ hahaha na Steven Hawking was right u can’t ever brag abt that not even ironically it always makes u look like a fool. all I can say is I’m glad very stable genius #donaldtrump doesn’t look like a #malemodel or strategically use woc 4 their social capital bc if he did I dare to think of the #abuse ppl who think they have good politics would #excuse!!!!!!!!!!!! #autismspeaks aka hi im a severely #traumatized #survivor who doesn’t know wtf to do coping poorly on this not-nearly-as-private-as-I’m-treating-it part of the #ptsd internet so srsly DM me if u do 🤞🏽🕳☠️

#algorithm recommended post abt #melaniatrump’s AUDACIOUS #NEW #TRASH FLAIR is sort of giving me #life no that’s the medications & quick treatment but uh srsly got the same question for any #billionaire buyin these that I got for the #enormousface #vampire who put me this close to #death like is there any amt of #abjection u won’t #appropriate any #otherness u won’t make a #cosplay 2 keep from idk what even #sad AF pond in winter #feeling u must have #inside u #capitalism #forsale #louboutin #dying #fakenews

my #health is rly bad & #enormousface #trauma even worse (lol tfw some1 u thought was uniquely integral to ur art practice poisons u such that you’ll probably nvr make sculpture again is RLY #something) but maybe it’s ok a hostile foreign power has compromised our #democracy & dis #spiteful #sepsis too &my whole #internet #deathspiral #spectacle bc this #resistance #tweet of #christophermeloni #SVU #detectivestabler still rly consoles me & my cognitive function seems improving or I’m getting better one hand texting lollololol still w the #cptsd tho #hbu

felt so #loved n so deeply capable of #making myself whole when I worked on all these already distant #weaponized #cane #walkingstick pieces , prospect of imminently losing hand & #horrifying jolt of #lucidity has me really #spiraling out , maybe it’s good I might never see my #studio again bc contextual irony of #enormousface #owl on this one is rly gutting I was so consoled by all those #thaiboys getting saved I hope they don’t have #cavedisease no ima stay positive not positive enough to post this on my ‘real’ accountS but idk #sepsis is #terrifying #wip #infection #productdesign #deathspiral I promise u lil giganticswole left hand if u don’t die I’m gonna start treatin u #right & never ever let any more clowns who eat #trash food intentionally & w great malice hurt u 🤕💪🏽🕳

I hope u guys like this lil #bunny i made out of the literally #poisoned #chocolate the #enormousface OG #trauma #muse sent w an old piece of #art I was already too sick to remake (hence why asking for it back) bc me guiltily pathetically trying to #craft this lil #dude from the pile of melted tainted shit received means now im abt to lose my whole left hand hahaha tfw #cellulitis is actually defective collagen is actually #parasites is actually #SEPSIS is actually just some #suicidal #formerartist w #nofriends lol in #Gilead the #punishment for that #commander who usedledonmanipulated Janine was losing his left hand there’s a clever poetic point to be made in there somewhere but I’m just too fucking #sad #pray for me if ur into that I’m not sure I still am so far everything I prayed for turned out real 11/10 bad I’m lookin at u #presidenttrump I mean #presidentputin #notalloligarchs #notallmen #maybeallmen #okallmen

wow wtf #offred ne june on #handmaidstale THAT WAS SOME NEXT LEVEL #SELFSABOTAGE...I can sorta #forgive ur #selfishness only when I frame ur inscrutable decision 2 abandon that hotly contested baby in the context of ur inevitable hella #ptsd ....sorta like when #enormousface told me how #xe nonconsensually bit a stranger so I traumamade all these #sad AF #copingmultitools to idk what conceptually discourage such #biting.... as tho any man willing to use the suffering of others as a stage for THEIR big #ideas should ever ever ever be relied upon for #empathy decency etc? As if the intensity of my desire for change could mitigate #REALITY (HANNAH IS GONE JUNE, LEAVE, BITCH PLZzzz!!!!) ...or the fact my #rapist nonconsensually bit people too, such that they also got banned and drew blood and left others broken feeling shamed refusing 2 acknowledge a wrong etc ......idk the pain is excruciating rn my left hand isn’t healing, #pray I recover from my enormousface injuries soon bc I miss my #studiolyfe & plethora of impotent #wip terribly & it sure seems like #Trump & #Putin are cooking up some OG #enormousfacebastard moves for Helsinki & I really want to make some #art abt that hellscape bromance I will inevitably be too traumatized to let any of my collectors see and #productdesign #elizabethancollar #openmindeddogs #trauma #underhiseye no srsly #helpme

as w most #trauma this account entails at its broken heart a #wretched #myopia, the near monotone of #pain I have tried to assuage in all the very worst ways. It is as one of many #survivors of a virulent #narcissist that I begin this endeavor for #accountability earnestly & in need of forgiveness too, I think, because I spent the last few years letting said abuser explain his side of things. I let him silence those parts of my heart that always knew the accusations were true because accepting his words was easier than facing my own complicity and for this I have only the most cellular how-do-I-make-this-right-now apologies. Further, that is to ask how do we confront and hold accountable those unrepentant abusers not quite famous enough to be #harveyweinstein shamed? The #artist who goes by #enormousface never raped me but he did rape my friend. The #artist who goes by #enormousface never beat me but he did knowingly mail me poison that cost me the partial use of my left hand. He sent me to the hospital on no less than three occasions and my health will be permanently effected. Like so many survivors I was silent, or worse, reached out to *him* suffering under the weight of memories and the guilt, truly desperate for any other explanation. So from here on out I will use this term #enormousface to refer to any shitty, middling abuser who uses their social capital to escape the lives they’ve ruined unscathed. Any shitty, middling abuser whose #enormousface still somehow dominates the #nightmares of those innocent persons who used to have #dreams. I will use the term #enormousface to organize survivors of that abuser and others of his vile ilk to help create as close as we can get to a functioning #safespace, to #healing, to real fucking change, even though & his #enablers make & sell lazy #broart mocking those things. Lol #redflag??????!!!?!!! I mean oof I mean Let’s work on our post #metoo #praxis together plz? hit up those DMs!!! #cptsd #ptsd #recovery #penance #peace 🌸💞🔥

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BROKEN BUT STILL SMILING WITH A HOPE THAT ONE DAY YOU WILL ACCEPT MY REQUEST #broken #sad #sadlife #sadmoments #lonely #pitylife #enormousface #fucku

Sorta picked up a cool new friend. #fellowtraveler #chelsea #streetsofnewyork #enormousface @enormousface

Then there was that time someone duct-taped me to their head and things got strange. #brooklyn #art #enormousface

🎸Material & Art OUT NOW 🎸 Go and listen on all of the tings like Spotify and stuff like that woooo 🐣my enormous face awaits your embrace xx

NOT-HAPPENING will be premiering on Oct 25. Feeling super grateful for everyone who worked so hard to make this happen. The screening starts at 7pm, Q&A at 8pm at Greenwich House Music School.💖 #greenwichvillage #enormousface #documentary #greenwichvillagefilmfestival #nyutisch @ghmusicschool @gvfilmfestival @enormousface

Three weeks and counting til @enormousface "Ontological Puppet Show: The Toy Becomes A Weapon"🌺Stay tuned for sneak peeks! #enormousface #kalansherrard #puppetry #puppet #HERE #puppetsAtHERE ▫️▪️▫️▪️▫️▪️@repostappoffical #Repost (@get_repost) ・・・ I'm doing this all wrong.