“She had a laugh like summer rain until the world tore it away.”

Hey guys!!! Sorry I haven’t posted in a while. I’m on vacation in @gublergram’s hometown, Las Vegas. #CriminalMinds #CM14 #davidrossi #joemantegna #derekmorgan #shemarmoore #spencerreid #drspencerreid #matthewgraygubler #matthewgubler #mgg #jenniferjareau #jj #ajcook #penelopegarcia #kirstenvangsness #emilyprentiss #pagetbrewster #taralewis #aishatyler #lukealvez #adamrodriguez #aaronhotchner #hotch #thomasgibson #stephenwalker #damongupton #mattsimmons #danielhenney @crimmindscbs @real_joemantegna @shemarfmoore @gublergram @ajcook @kirstenvangsness @pagetpagetgram @aishatyler @adamrodriguez @thomasgibsonofficial @danielhenney

I realized I’m kinda late buuuuut - - - - - thank you for 200 followers! I keep making these promises that I never keep once I reach a certain amount of followers (probably because I never thought it’d happen) buuuut nonetheless, thank you! I guess you can have this gross side of me at 300 followers. But I’ll probably make something more promising than another stupid sappy speech (again, probably not gonna happen.)— #criminalminds #drspencerreid #matthewgraygubler #jenniferjareau #ajcook #emilyprentiss #pagetbrewster #davidrossi #joemantegna #penelopegarcia #kirstenvangsness

this is war |33| |Final Update| • Where to find all the parts to this story: #htextingtiw Backup: @htextingbackup She murmured. "It took you almost six years...but you won, didn't you? You always were better at Chess than I was." She confessed. "You knew from the beginning that I would inevitably be checkmated. That's why you gave me the option of resigning or playing through to the end, isn't it?" She asked curiously, letting out a wet chuckle as she shook her head. "I think you knew I wasn't a whole person and I think you knew I never will be. Parts of me died in that house in Tokyo and I seem to visit them in my dreams. You've fucked me up, you know that?" Y/n asked, choked up and broken as more tears slipped out of her eyes. "I may have been the last one left...but I wasn't left standing. Was I too soft, or was the world too hard for a girl like me?" Her question was left unanswered, much like the others she had asked as she scoffed. "But time will pass; this guilt and anger will pass; and I will, eventually, be myself again.  I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday. And when he comes for me...I'll be ready. After you...hell should be easy and a part of me can't wait to see you there. So congratulations," She said firmly, holding her head high, no evidence of the war she had just went through or the tears on her face as she clenched her jaw. "Because you found my weakness. Him. And perhaps he’ll follow in your footsteps because you ultimately know nothing.  You misunderstood me when I called myself a shell. I meant a used up bullet casing. As in, the aftermath of something lethal. As in, an echo of inflicted evil. He will make the same fatal mistakes you did and he will realize, much like you did, that you were right to call me unstable. I'm a walking disaster. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am good, but not an angel. So what does that make me? Am I a sinner or a saint?" Her cold, pale hands wiped away a golden brown leaf that had fallen from the nearby tree and landed on the stone with grace. She wondered if it knew it was falling on tainted ground.

this is war |32| • Where to find all the parts to this story: #htextingtiw Backup: @htextingbackup leave your bones. They said that like salt in the sea: they become a part of you. It fits so perfectly with you, because very early in your life it was too late." The wind blew softly and Y/n finally looked away from the stone and instead focused her attention on the passing by cars on the busy street, her knees beginning to ache and the coolness of the ground, combined with the end, began to give her chills in the most unsettling way. "I ask myself, why me, but I know," she whispered, nodding slightly as she pushed back unshed tears. "I was easy. I was so easy." Y/n cleared her throat, bringing a hand up to wipe away the stray tear that had found its way out of her left eye and onto her alabaster skin. "You had asked me how far I would go for the other half of my you have your answer now? You should have known that I would do bad things in order to should have known that I would fight for my family until my very last breath. Didn't your mother ever teach you not to play games with someone who could play them better?” Y/n paused, taking a soft breath and in a much soft voice, began again, “I guess in a way you did win though, didn't you? Because they're gone now. And he's still out there, waiting, lurking. Some days I can feel his eyes glued on me...I can just never find them, but that's okay. He'll get his turn. Just like you did." Y/n welcomed the silence as she stole a look over her right shoulder, looking at the man leaning against the black suburban, waiting patiently for her to return. "They say I'm a traitor," she murmured. "Maybe I am. Maybe I don't care. All I know is I did what I had to do. I have done bad things, I suppose. I can't take them back, and they are part of who I am now. Most of the time, they seem like the only thing I am...and that scares me." She admitted, glancing back down at the name engraved on the headstone. "It does more than scare me. I am terrified by this dark thing that sleeps in and I can't help but wonder if you were scared of yours too." Y/n swallowed hard, taking a shallow, uneven breath. "Zugzwang."

this is war |31| • Where to find all the parts to this story: #htextingtiw Backup: @htextingbackup (If shit sounds familiar it’s because it probably is. A lot of quotes are from Pinterest. This took hella long to write because I wanted to put something semi decent out. This is long, and confusing (maybe?) it’s okay if it is. It’ll be explained. Errors ahead.) |110 Days After| experience is brutal teacher, but you learn. my god, do you learn. -c.s. lewis "I came here to thank you for teaching me something about survival back there," Y/n spoke softly as she knelt on the recently mowed cemetery law, the polished stone staring back at her, "but then I remembered that the ocean never handed me the gift of swimming. I gave that to myself." Her voice was strong and confident, the fear that once occupied it no longer there, her mouth now vacant. "So instead, I want to thank you for something else.  When all of this started, I didn't know what I was fighting for,” she admitted, “now I do. Thank you for showing what to fight for, who to fight for, and who to stand for." Muddy water began seeping into the knees of Y/n’s black suit pants, the recently dug ground sinking slightly under her weight, but none of this seemed to bother her, she just continued her stare down with the polished granite. "This time last year, everything was different, you know? I wouldn't have pictured myself like this, and now that I look back, I have realized that a year can do a lot to a person. I've slipped back into my old ways and I guess you of all people know how easy it is to fall back into darkness. For the longest time, I blamed myself for the way you turned out." Y/n paused, closing her mouth as she took a deep breath and slowly let it out, her hands resting on her legs. "But the truth is," she continued, "some people are just born with tragedy in their blood. It's funny to think that nearly seven years ago you had me at a point where I would've left the entire world behind for you. I believed in you and then you just fell apart. You broke my trust and then my heart. I suppose it's easy to understand why I blamed myself for so long. A friend of mine once said that some memories never

lmao probably my crush’s reaction when i tell him i like him because i make it way too obvious. also i graduate in two days and i am honestly not ready ugghhh all my friends actually know what they wanna do with their lives and i’m here like yo bitch i own a meme page #criminalminds #jenniferjareau #ajcook #aaronhotchner #thomasgibson #penelopegarcia #kirstenvangsness #spencerreid #matthewgraygubler #emilyprentiss #pagetbrewster #derekmorgan #shemarmoore #davidrossi #joemantegna #criminalmindsmeme #meme #memes

it's been a while (since I've edited her/posted) — cc sxperkara ac acontinum sc rcbirths — #coteriegrp #ucgrp #omgpage #omgcm

Just a little reminder that something is going on for Kirsten Vangsness’ birthday! More infos on the birthday project are available soon, so if you want to participate let me know if you haven't done it already with LIKING THIS POST❤️ #kirstenvangsness #kirstenvangsnessfans #penelopegarcia #garcie #garcia #morcia #originalbabygirl #babygirl #happybirthdaykirstenvangsness #birthdayproject

im excited for season 14 - - - - - school’s gross— #criminalminds #jenniferjareau #ajcook #penelopegarcia #kirstenvangsness

— AJ and Matthew Fact💓 i fucked up my knee pretty bad and now i have to use crutches and i have to present in classes tomorrow so wow i’m so frickin happy to go to school and get picked on yay me :) - {translation in french} aj et matthew aiment faire des théories sur ce qui est arrivé sur JJ et Reids date de la saison 1 - tags! #criminalmindsfacts #criminalminds #emilyprentissdeservesbetter #aishatyler #adamrodriguez #kirsten #kirstenvangsness #matthew #matthewgraygubler #mgg #ajcook #pagetbrewster #joemantegna #shemarmoore #thomasgibson #taralewis #lukealvez #penelopegarcia #spencerreid #reid #jenniferjareau #JJ #emilyprentiss #davidrossi #derekmorgan #aaronhotchner #omgpage #fact #facts

This took me FOREVER! Sorry about the CBS watermark I couldn’t remove it from the images 😬 #criminalminds #criminalmindsedit #spencerreid #matthewgraygubler #jj #ajcook #aaronhotchner #thomasgibson #penelopegarcia #kirstenvagnessa #davidrossi #joemantegna #emilyprentiss #pagetbrewster #shemarmoore #derekmorgan 🤗 @gublergram @shemarfmoore @kirstenvangsness @ajcook @thomasgibsonofficial @joemantegna @pagetpagetgram